LDR

i always feel sad whenever close friends go through rough patches. especially if they're not near enough for me to give them a hug. because hugs can convey so much more than half an hour on the phone.. or extended msn conversations.

i used to be a compulsive hugger. not very hard to imagine when you consider the fact that i'm from an all-girls secondary/high school. you hugged everyone and anyone for everything and anything - people you loved, people you disliked... to cheer up, to backstab, or for no reason whatsoever. if you were wondering... i was mostly on the receiving end of the backstabbing. but let's not go there. i'm a happy little camper now :)

i used to have an entire philosophy about hugs. i only remember bits and pieces now though. of course... like every other teenager.. i thought that i was 'different' and that everyone else was silly and childish in one way or another. (yeah i know... i'm a self-proclaimed elitist... i don't intend to be, but somehow it comes across that way ) i liked giving people hugs because it (looked like it) made them smile. but then again.. you never know with these high school girls. they're pretty good at acting. i know i was.

i think i must come across pretty screwed up. haha.

i don't give away hugs as easily these days. perhaps i've come to think that giving them too often sort of dilutes the intensity of what they're meant to convey. or maybe it just starts to get a bit more inappropriate as you get older. i don't know.


what i do know.. is that i wish i could be there to give you a hug, share a six pack, talk about stuff and show you that things are going to be alright. and they will be.

know that you are in my prayers.