who moved my grapefruit?
more than a week has passed. i guess it's about time that i updated ;)
i've just realized that i've been blogging for about 7 years. man... i feel kinda old. that's a third of my lifetime. i know i've said it many times, but it really is amazing how time flies. no matter how slow time seems to be crawling at the current moment (exams and assignments people...!!!), all you have to do is look back to realize that it's all the illusion of an extremelystressedout mind.
gone are the times when blogging was (for me) an outlet for the day's frustrations and an empty (pixel) canvas for experimenting in web design and angsty poetry. i used to get a real kick out of going back to my old blogs to take a trip down memory lane. i still have all my own site designs somewhere in my hard-disk on my old laptop. maybe its a good thing that diary-x crashed. haha. i don't ever have to look at all that (bad) angsty poetry ever again.
perhaps its an innately human desire to want to believe that we're progressing somehow. maybe its a coming of age thing. every time we come to an epiphany, about issues, circumstances, situations etc., we seem to imagine that we're somewhat better off than we were yesterday.
what IS 'progress' anyway? is it possible to progress in one arena without sacrificing or giving up something else? are we REALLY better off with all our fancy technology and myriad of social and cultural constructions? is the capitalist economy really 'better' than an agrarian one? what in the WORLD are we trying to prove and who are we trying to prove it to? ourselves? kinda ridiculous if you think about it.
this existential angst is really getting me pumped up.
humans are funny creatures. always striving, always wanting more. we cheat, we lie, we backstab and blackmail... and then we justify ourselves, for this and that reason. even if its the belief in one's inherent superiority (think hitler)... it's still some sort of justification. why do we need reasons? and why do we have to try and understand everything?
i don't understand why we have to try and understand everything. go figure.
looks like i've progressed from high school angst to.. well.. i don't know really.
i'm hungry. gonna go snack a bit in front of the tv... bought these gorgeous grapefruits from the market yesterday. mmm... grapefruits...
i've just realized that i've been blogging for about 7 years. man... i feel kinda old. that's a third of my lifetime. i know i've said it many times, but it really is amazing how time flies. no matter how slow time seems to be crawling at the current moment (exams and assignments people...!!!), all you have to do is look back to realize that it's all the illusion of an extremelystressedout mind.
gone are the times when blogging was (for me) an outlet for the day's frustrations and an empty (pixel) canvas for experimenting in web design and angsty poetry. i used to get a real kick out of going back to my old blogs to take a trip down memory lane. i still have all my own site designs somewhere in my hard-disk on my old laptop. maybe its a good thing that diary-x crashed. haha. i don't ever have to look at all that (bad) angsty poetry ever again.
perhaps its an innately human desire to want to believe that we're progressing somehow. maybe its a coming of age thing. every time we come to an epiphany, about issues, circumstances, situations etc., we seem to imagine that we're somewhat better off than we were yesterday.
what IS 'progress' anyway? is it possible to progress in one arena without sacrificing or giving up something else? are we REALLY better off with all our fancy technology and myriad of social and cultural constructions? is the capitalist economy really 'better' than an agrarian one? what in the WORLD are we trying to prove and who are we trying to prove it to? ourselves? kinda ridiculous if you think about it.
this existential angst is really getting me pumped up.
humans are funny creatures. always striving, always wanting more. we cheat, we lie, we backstab and blackmail... and then we justify ourselves, for this and that reason. even if its the belief in one's inherent superiority (think hitler)... it's still some sort of justification. why do we need reasons? and why do we have to try and understand everything?
i don't understand why we have to try and understand everything. go figure.
looks like i've progressed from high school angst to.. well.. i don't know really.
i'm hungry. gonna go snack a bit in front of the tv... bought these gorgeous grapefruits from the market yesterday. mmm... grapefruits...
posted by Deb at
2:59 PM
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