sandcastle romeo

sometimes i wonder what it would be like to be romanced. it's something that i can't say that i've experienced before... and well... like any girl, i guess i'm curious. too many movies perhaps? a lot of my guy friends tell me what they want/plan to do for the girls that they like.. and its so amusing and adorable because they're so into it and excited and sweet. and i'm happy for them. they seem to get an adrenaline rush from it (half of which probably comes from the nervousness), and they tell me its the thrill of the chase.

the thrill of the chase indeed. makes us females sound like antelopes or something.

it's not that i'm unhappy at the way things have turned out for me. i am and i love you. but well.. sometimes i just can't help but wonder about my mother's words and all the whatifs.

especially the whatifs.

i always cry when i watch romantic comedies. ok i can cry watching cartoons.. but that really isn't the point. it's kind of a wistful iwishthatcouldhappentome sort of feeling that makes me tingly and happy and sad all at the same time. but then again, movies are movies, and they are feel-good movies.. so perhaps i'm just a victim of hollywood fairytale stories.


...all i wanna do is grow old with you...